Because I am Free

God’s power at work for a new time of life

by Enggrid Lilianawati Tjia, NPCM    

Printable Article (pdf)

New Pentecost member Enggrid Tjia discovered the revelation of her freedom in Jesus Christ in a grace-filled moment that brings her into a new season. She imparts that to anyone that would open themselves to let the Holy Spirit work in this way.

I have dreamt many times that I was in the ocean; the color of the water was dark blue and it was calm. I never understood the meaning of these dreams of the past few years until today; actually it was revealed to me just a while ago. 

The curious thing was that any time I was near the ocean or beach in real life, something inside me wanted to be part of it. I had always thought this was from these strange dreams and meant that I missed my hometown in Indonesia. But now I see it was the invitation from the Lord to free me from my past. I believe that I was asleep spiritually because I was afraid. I chose to sleep spiritually because I wrongly came to believe that I was limited, and therefore had to limit myself as others had limited me. 

For years, I did not live my life to the full potential that God had given me because people oppressed me. The more I accepted that, the more  bound I became. I created a box and lived inside because it was only there that I felt safe and comfortable. This way, I believed, I wouldn’t hurt anyone. I took this as a guarantee for my life. I just made excuses or ran away from both God and myself because of my fears and lack of trust. 

Here are a few examples: My teachers used to tell me, “Enggrid, don’t use your left hand, it is a bad hand,” or it’s impolite.”  Others said “Enggrid, “don’t waste your time with music.” Some said, “Enggrid, don’t go out after dark because evil spirits will get you.” It went on: “Enggrid, you should have a nose surgery,” “Enggrid, don’t choose that major, you will never make a good living from it.” “Enggrid, you are ugly;” “You are too short”; “your skin is so dark”; “Enggrid, you are stupid.” … So many things were said that were brutal and abusive.  

All this not only limited my spiritual growth but also confused me. I often cried alone because I did not know what to say or how to get out of this trap. For years I thought of myself as an ugly person, both physically and emotionally. I felt useless. I was incapable of taking any compliment from anyone; I didn’t believe any positive word people said to me. I pushed them away, rejected them and refused intimacy.

One day one of my coworkers noted, “Enggrid, you are a left-handed person.” I said, “No I am not. I’m a right-handed person!” Later on I met a friend who told me, “Enggrid, you are ambidextrous!” Honestly, even now I don’t know whether I am left or right or both. I couldn’t figure that out when I was young. Because I wasn’t free I missed the opportunity to see the potential I truly possessed with my hands. Funny thing – I enjoy both my hands now: With each one, I can do different things! It doesn’t matter whether I am left or right or ambidextrous; I know now I will use both of them gratefully.

Because I am free, I will no longer return to brood over my past bondage or continue to regret the abuse of others. I am free to change the present. I don’t want to limit myself again. Because when I permit my past bondage to oppress me, it means I receive a curse on myself and sooner or later it will become a stronghold of the Enemy. God did not make me for that! He made me so that blessings should flow in my life. I can no longer block the blessings; I don’t want to return to the box again. I don’t want to look down, but I will look forward. I invited Jesus Christ to revisit my past life and deliver me.

I failed God when I limited myself; I failed God when I was afraid to use his gifts and block his Holy Spirit from flowing in me. Now is the time for my past debts to God to be paid by being open to the fullness of Jesus’ life. Now is the time to welcome the new season of freedom! 

I now invite you to do the same. Where you were oppressed, ask Jesus to bring down the walls of limitation in your past and bring forward the blessings and prosperity that God has for you since He created you and placed you in your mother’s womb. I pray this for you in the Name of Jesus. Just as I had to, forgive anyone who ever limited you. And forgive yourself for the times you have crawled into a box only to fall asleep spiritually. 

δ         δ         δ

At the beginning of this new season Jesus stands before you and says: 

OPEN THE GATE, DOOR, AND WINDOWS OF YOUR MIND, SOUL AND HEART TO ME. LET THE WIND OF MY BLESSINGS AND PROSPERITY ENTER YOU THROUGH ANY OPENING YOU CAN CREATE FOR ME.

NO LONGER BLOCK MY BLESSINGS AND MY HOLY SPIRIT FOR WHATEVER REASON IN YOUR LIFE … WELCOME A NEW TIME WITH A GRATEFUL SPIRIT. 

I WILL TAKE AWAY YOUR BLOCKS AND REPLACE THEM WITH MY BLOOD, AND THE FIRE OF MY HOLY SPIRIT!  

THE FIRE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT IS ABAZE IN YOUR MIND, BODY, SPIRIT AND HEART IN THE NEWEST WAY. IT WILL PURIFY AWAY YOUR OLD WAY OF THINKING AND BRING YOU INTO THE FULLNESS OF MY LIFE IN YOU. 

THE MANTLE I GIVE WILL INSPIRE YOU TO OVERCOME ALL YOUR FEARS; THE ANOINTING I GIVE WILL BRING YOU FORWARD TO THE NEW SEASON IN YOUR LIFE, VOCATION AND MINISTRY.

δ         δ         δ

I DECLARE AND PROCLAIM THE NEW YEAR AND THE YEARS TO COME ARE YEARS OF BLESSING, HEALING, MERCY, PROSPERITY, LOVE.  THEY ARE YEARS OF VICTORY TO US, OUR LOVED ONES, OUR PAST GENERATIONS, PRESENT GENERATION AND THE FUTURE GENERATIONS IN THE NAME OF JESUS. 

THANK YOU JESUS AND WE LOVE YOU!!! AMEN

Printable Article (pdf)